kadywicker:

kadywicker:

sexuality when ur trans is such a weird Rollercoaster let me tell ya

okay like seriously it’s such a unique experience bc you’re raised to like the same gender you’re raised on the expectation that you’ll marry a boy eventually. but the way it’s talked about thought about Expressed feels Wrong. you don’t want to be a girl on her wedding day marrying a boy. you don’t want to be a girl kissing a guy. you don’t want to be some guys girlfriend. so you say okay I must not like boys (even if you have proof to the contrary let me tell you I had some doozies of gay baby crushes on boys). but that feels weird too. it’s off. it’s Still Not Right. so then when u realize oh hey fuck wait I Am Boy and then that attraction to men is suddenly very appealing like…….. a boys boyfriend???? a boys husband???? it’s all So Much

like idk it’s just a very weird form of internalized homophobia that’s so hard to put into words bc like you weren’t raised to feel ashamed for liking men but it was never Right anyway

(sidenote I’m sure this applies to trans wlw too I’m just not one and don’t want to talk abt smth I don’t understand. feel free to add on if you want!)